The Little Things... and the things not so little. What I'm thankful for today.

Today has been a good day. Let me tell you why.

1. I got 8 hours of precious sleep.
2. I got my homework done around 7:30
3. I think I'm starting to understand drawing a bit more... slowly but surely.
4. I made a new friend today.
5. It was 68 degrees today... It's January!
6. It's only 9 o'clock so I have  freetime to use as I chose.
7. I have the bestest friend in the world. That isn't something exclusive to today but just thinking about that makes me happy.

Thank you God for Today. =D

It's like I forgot I have a blog or something... or my schedule is to busy to maintain it.

Well, it's been a while. Not that, that many people read this in the first place. I guess this blog is sometimes just more of a place I can air my thoughts. Maybe someday it will have some direction... maybe someday my life will have some direction as well. Well, a girl can hope.

There are days when I honestly have no clue where I'm headed in life. Why am I in school? Is this really what I should be studying? I'm I spending my time wisely? Am I thinking too much about the future? Am I thinking too little? It's hard to juggle school, friends, family, God, myself... and sometimes I just can't handle it. But having breakdowns aren't always bad, then you can start fresh again. I guess this time of life can be frustrating for anyone. People always expect so much of you. I expect so much of myself. You have to figure out your life Kelly, the world demands it. Everyone is counting on you to have everything under control. Well what if I don't have everything under control? What is the world going to then? What will I do then?

Regardless of my worries, I know everything will turn out okay in the end. I've always known that. It's just the getting there part. How many mistakes can I make? How many wrong turns will I take? How long before I find my way? Hmmm that could be the start of a song....

Speaking of which I started a song over winter break that kind of goes along with how I feel sometimes. This is the chorus:

And these dreams of yesterdayCant compare with the ones I'm dreaming nowAnd I cannot believeWhat I have seen and where I've beenOnly God knew this could happenBecause I still don't know where I'm heading And now, It doesn't matterSomehow, I'll find what I'm after. 

Somehow.... I'll find what I'm after. Somehow... I'll have my happily ever after. And who's to say that it isn't happening now? Nothing is perfect, but life is wonderful. I just wish I had more time to live it. Instead spending my time stressed over school projects and other issues. Life is one big adventure and every part of it counts. There's not just one part when things are automatically better. We have our ups and we have our downs. But that is part of the journey. Part of what helps us grow and makes us better people.

So to conclude I guess haha, Life is good... but I can feel a little directionless at times. "Everything will be fine," my friends tell me almost jokingly when I'm stressed out. But they are right, everything will be fine.

Oh Lord, show me what I'm after.