Music Love

It's days like this where I wish I could just play my guitar and sing for literally the whole day...

I haven't played for a while... until today. I went to a concert last night which really made me wanna write. I started writing two songs. Who knows when they will be finished. But at least I have started.

The love I have for music is something I can't explain. I know many people probably feel the same way I do... But goodness, it is something I feel strongly connected too. God made that so... I write out my worries, my sadness, my joy all into music. Not many people have heard a lot of my music, but it is really apart of me. I wish I could share it more...

I would really just love to sit and play for my friends some day... that is if they would wanna listen.

I'm in a reflective mood. One perfect for songwriting. I would post what I started writing... but I think I will save that for later.

A lot on my mind.

Have a good week everyone. Don't forgot to make time for yourself... for the things that make you happy.

Umm... Help?

So.

I'm feeling confused about something that I thought I was starting to figure out... Funny how those things go. God's will is all fuzzy to me. I just can't seem to figure it out. Is it because I am not trusting him enough? Because I'm afraid?

I don't know the answer. I don't know what to do. I just needed to get my thoughts out. And now the internet has them......

In other news, actually I have no other news right now... Kelly is tired. College makes her tired. She needs sleep... But no worries though, she will survive. =)

Thoughts that come about while doing the wonderfully exciting task... a thing people call... Laundry.

So... I'm just sitting here waiting for my laundry to be done... I'm also sitting here with my art history book in my lap but I am avoiding reading it... And the perfect way to do that is by writing a blog.

A friend got me thinking the other day. I was really stressed out about some of my classes... I was overreacting and forgetting to trust. She sent me this text... And what I will show you is a little modified so it can apply to everyone and not just me:

"You have time to figure this out and don't have to find your purpose right away. God may have a reason for not revealing it his will to you right now."

Like I said... that got me thinking. And there are two specific things I got from it. 1. A reminder that God has reason for everything. 2. Patience is key in discerning his will.

Life shouldn't be easy. If it was easy... I dare to say it would be a lot less boring. Challenges make us better people, and pain (as much as it hurts) can make us stronger. Persevering through tough times can do so many good things for you. I've really come to understand that quite recently. And if I hadn't gone through those tough times, I wouldn't have overcome some of my demons. So it may be strange for some to hear this, but I'm glad I went through that time of struggle. It became a time of growth, a time of growth that I really truly needed.

Another friend told me about another analogy that I really like: Our spiritual life is like climbing up a waterfall. Sometimes the climb is really easy... the path is covered by slippery rocks or dangerous rapids. But sometimes, it is quite the opposite. You slip. You fall. You feel like you can't go on. But if you preserver. The view at the top is one of the most beautiful views you have ever seen in your life. (I suppose this analogy could work with climbing a mountain as well).

The journey of life is a crazy one. It is a crazy beautiful and wonderfully confusing one. But that is how I like it and as it should be.

Perhaps God is calling me to be patient in this time of stress... to persevere... to not give up so quickly. Waiting is not a bad thing. Good things come to those who wait. I know with God at my side everything will work itself out in the end... now if only I can remember that along the way. =P

My Day!

So, today I woke up at 8:30. Crazy stuff right??? I'm so surprised I actually woke up. haha. I didn't wake up in time for breakfast though... apparently it ends at 8:30!! Who knew? Not this girl. Well me and my roommate rachel decided to make our way up to the union where we could eat... nom coffee and oatmeal. Well the oatmeal was okay I guess. =P

Then I got to go to mass. I was super pumped cuz the last daily mass I went to was too long ago... It was my first mass in town... discovered that people only seem to sit on the right side of the church at daily mass cuz rachel and I were the only ones on the the left. lol. Well now we know. I also had time to pray a whole rosary before mass started which was really nice. =)

After mass we came back to our room where I finally had a chance to play my guitar which I have been dying to do... a girl knocked on our door because apparently I was singing and playing loud enough that you could hear it through the walls. She told me I had a good voice and that she may come back and make me play a song for her lol.

I also got to spend two hours writing at the library today. I LOVE the library here. It is so relaxing and peaceful. There is this room called the Great Room where you are required to be quiet... It def looks like something right out of Harry Potter...

Then I met my new advisor... cuz I've already gone through two and classes haven't even started. She was really nice.

It's been a good day... and it's not nearly over. *Happy sigh* I love it here. =)

A New Home.

Today was moving day.

I am no longer living in a familiar place with the familiar faces of my family. I am 2 and a half hours away. At college. I have many mixed feelings about that. Excitement. Anticipation. Fear. Anxiety. Happiness. Sadness...

It's a change. And as much as I hate change... I know this will be a good change. This is a part of growing. And I am looking forward to it. I have high hopes for this year. Luckily, I am not beginning this new chapter in my life alone. I have some really great friends coming to school with me... one in particular friend of mine and I have become very close... and that friendship really makes me happy. I am very blessed...

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My parents just left... I didn't think I would be this sad... hehe, I'm actually crying some... There is a part of me deep in my heart that doesn't want to leave home yet... that doesn't quite want to grow up. However, the majority of myself... if thats an okay way to word it... knows I have to. And not only that, but wants to and knows it will be good.

This place. This campus. This room--this will become my new home... not a permanent one. But my home for the next four years. And the friends that I have now and the new ones I make will become practically family. I do have high hopes like I said before. It will be a good year. And I have Christ at my side guiding me as I walk.

Summer of Changes

Well I haven't written a blogpost in over a month... Like I said I'm really bad about doing this. Anywho, I happen to have some time to spare... maybe not, but I'd like to get some thoughts out.

The last 6 months of my life have been some of the most painful, heart wrenching, and hard months of my life.... but they have been some of the most beautiful. This has been one of my best summers... one of my favorites. And the number one reason for that you ask? God. I have discovered the friendship of Jesus Christ and it is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Now this friendship has been a journey and even sometimes a struggle... I am by no means a perfect friend, however, his unconditional love continues to amaze me.

God definitely has a wonderful plan for my life. Do I know what it is? Nope! Another piece is reveled everyday... and it is an exciting adventure. He has brought so many people and so many experiences into my life without me even realizing the impact that they would have on me.

Let's talk about friends. I have some of the strongest and best friendships of my life at this point. They are friends that will do anything for me and aren't afraid to call me out if I am doing something stupid... I have realized that my best friendships are the ones rooted in Christ. We are all striving for virtue. We may be at different parts of our own journey, but we are all following the same path. Each and every day, I am learning to become a better friend. To place myself second. "To love rather than to be loved." (I love the prayer of St. Francis).

So, now I am getting ready to go off to college... a BIG change. It makes me kind of nervous thinking about it. For the first time in my life I am going to be living on my own without my parents as a safety net. I have the looming pressure in the back of my mind that is making me second-guess my major. A lot of my best friends won't be coming with me. And I leave in two days.

...It's a lot to take in. One of my dear friends has a new quote that she lives by: Pray, hope, and don't worry. ~Padre Pio.

That's what I need to do now. Let God take control... because I am really not alone. I have Him there every second along the way. Now I have to just make sure I always remember that.

So now I feel as if I am rambling haha... Honestly, I should get back to packing. I have a lot to do... and never feels as if there is enough time.

I will end with another quote that I absolutely love.

God is like a parachute. he will save you when you fall, but you have to jump to fell Him carrying you. 

Catching Up, Laying Back, and Listening to Music.

So, I think it has been established that I am an awful blogger... I can't even keep up with blogging once a week.... Anywho, right now I'm at my friend Caity's house. And I'm typing this on her MACBOOK PRO. I want one so terribly bad. I'm saving up for one... about half way there! Yay! We were planning on going swimming, but the sun decided that he didn't wanna show himself today... oh wells. We went anyway. Now we are just chilling in her room and listening to music. Right now the music of choice is "There She Goes" performed by Sixpence None the Richer. Listen!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTbNTe5gZLo

Another good one of their songs is called "Kiss Me." This one I like much better... and they actually wrote this one. Listen Again!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32rasDF7jtQ

Well I could ramble on about music for hours... but I don't really have the time haha. I don't really have a whole lot to say right now... so I'm going to sign off. More updates later!

All the Small Things

Okay. I have been super busy this week.... ergo... blog has not been updated. But hello again! I just woke up. And I'm eating a hot pocket. I'm sure you all wanted to know that...

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about appreciation. I mean, my life hasn't been exactly the easiest lately, but it is amazing all the wonderful things God has been placing in my life to counter the hardship.. But the thing to remember is that grace sometimes comes in the smallest ways, but that doesn't mean it doesn't leave a big impact.

The little things leave the biggest impacts on our hearts... at least that is something that I believe. For example, a smile from a friend when you are having a bad day can change that bad day into a better one.

So here is my goal for this summer.. or rather one for my life. Always appreciate the small things. They make up life... now I want to tell you about the last few days because they have been really really awesome.
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• Friday night I went to riverfest with some friends... We watched the fireworks together. It was just one of those moments when, even though things aren't perfect in life, it reminds that there is hope.
• Friday late night the same group of friends and I went to Mcdonald's and tried to drive an "invisible car" through the drive thru. It didn't work haha... but I did something I'd never thought I'd do.
• Saturday morning my and a friend when to Taco Bell at 11:30 in the morning... in our pajamas. 
• Saturday afternoon I went to the lake for a friends birthday party... I got to go tubing with one of my best friends in the whole wide world. 
• Saturday night I saw a dear friend in a dance recital... She is so beautiful. And I can't help but smile when I think of how talented she is. 
• Sunday night I headed back to riverfest... saw a country concert (another thing I thought I'd never do) and then hung out at sonic afterwards. 

It's been a wonderful past couple of days... and I'm incredibly blessed. Those are the things that pull me through when I am feeling down... and I am forever grateful. 

Introductions

My friend Annie has been telling me that I should get one of these things for quite some time now.... and I finally did. Thank you Annie for encouraging me to get one! I think I will like having a blog. I have a lot of thoughts inside my head that never seem to have the chance to come out... well this can be that place for them to flow freely.

So what should you, my readers, expect? Well, I will keep that a surprise, because I think it will be a surprise to myself as well. I will write what comes to mind, so we shall see how this story unfolds together. =)

Now for a little about myself.

Hi! My name is Kelly! I would be no where in life without God, my friends, or music. I love life, despite all the struggles it brings. I am a songwriter. I love to laugh... according to my friends I have multiple and very distinguishable laughs! Haha, well I'm glad! I'm introverted, and that's okay. But, I also love talking... I tend to ramble... Like now for example, I could go on for hours about who I am. But I don't wanna give everything away at one time!

So keep in touch, I promise I have something interesting to say. =)